Rough day. My day started out great then went downhill as the day went on. I don't know if I should call it an attack or just being lazy but I just plain out lost my joy. It's my own fault really, I let it go too easily. Have you ever done that? Someone annoys you at work, or the kids don't want to listen, the husband/wife is grumpy, nothing you do goes right, and there it goes, right out the window with the breeze. Well that was definitely me today. I did try to grasp it as it blew and bobbed around but just couldn't get ahold of it strong enough. I know there will be days like this. I'm just still disappointed and saddened that it happened.
It was beautiful weather today. As I was sitting eating my lunch outside, I heard a few motorcycles pass by which reminded me of my Uncle who had passed away a few months ago. I thought of how he would have enjoyed such a beautiful day riding his harley and it instantly brought tears to my eyes. He was always a little rough around the edges but deep down he was a teddy bear. I guess from there that's where I became vulnerable emotionally. I won't go into all the details but it was like falling down a hill on your butt. Not graceful at all.
I tried to pick myself up and dust myself off but kept getting knocked back down. Guess that's when it's just best to go to bed and sleep it off. That way you can start fresh the next day.
So that's what I am going to do. Good night readers!
Jesus thank you for getting me thru this day. Please give me the strength to endure the failures and falls. Thank you for never giving up on me and for loving me thru my mistakes and ugliness. I ask for a better day tomorrow.
In Jesus' name, Amen.
Peace, Love & Blessings!
Nikki
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